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It's been long since....

8th April 2008

When you can't go back, you have to worry only about the best way of moving forward....
any point of time you feel like giving up?any sec?any moment? sometimes i juz ponder....
what exactly is the motivation to make one moving forward..knowing...life is a long journey of sufferings....memories...memories and feelings are the thing....the powerful brain and heart.....
sometimes....it can become a pain isnt it?i felt it.....long ago...been always coming....sometimes would just, wonder, y would things evolve to such stage...y it wasnt like this in the past....y things change, and y some things nvr change.....

without brain and heart....wud it be gd?memories...feelings...tats wad make us rmb things..feel things...and thus, u feel happy...angry...sad....remember happy...sad....moments...if without this...no emotions at all...would it be better?haha..without this, would we still behave like a human?a life?haha...

maybe without happy moments, u wont feel sad when the sad times set in....without sadness, you nvr noe wads happiness.....so..interlink of feelings..ha....

Feelings are the root cause of everything.....u got it...u got it...is difficult to forget those feelings u felt before.....memory.....

if only we cud reformat our hard disk.....

10/01/2008

10 days of 2008 had passed..fast isnt it? Still time I'll say 'next yr' and im referring to 2008...no, is this yr already. =)

A happy ending to 2007..now, hope 2008 will be a blessed and wonderful one too..and so far, it has been...

New yr resolutions..alot alot...haha..few main categories..

1)family (my whole family and of coz, my dear)
2)myself (education & $)
3)Best frens and Bros

turning 21 this yr already. Cant imagine man..i have been living for 21 yrs soon..looked at my baby photos, i cant imagine time flies so fast..look at how young my mum n dad are, and now, my dad aged real much. is so.....fast...i miss those innocent kids days..ha..though i dun really have alot of childhood..coz i dun do much things when young, dun watch cartoons, dun play often..wad i did?ha..of coz i have other aspects of my childhood.haha....

I am completed with my whole family...none of the members can be apart...they make my life complete...i love them!
This yr I believed it will be what I wish and dream for...a Happy 2008......it will be.....

photos tat i flipped thru...memories flashed in my mind....just keep appearing....appearing...appearing....it just.....
realised, tats was the period of time, when i took most number of photos in my life.....
her lovely smile...painted in my mind clearly....tats was wad i so happy to see....
her lovely appreciative words...all ringing in my ear drums...tats was wad i so delighed to hear..
her lovely spoon feeding..all picturing in my mind...tats was wad i so enjoyed tasting...
wad else? so much more....and now..was a.....fairy tale.......tat...y am i still thinkin and reminiscing?there is really no y this time.......tats was..feeling..haha......
so many lovely things in day to day life happenings tat.....link to her...y is it tat she left a great impact on me, but where am i to her now?
though is impossible...y am i still...unable to put it down......perhaps..is a great story that i cant forget...

sad rite?so sad......again....i noe....i caused this tragedy....自做自受

我不配

人生至古 谁知足
让你当了，皇上，你又怕孤独。。。。。
哈哈有趣吧。。。

i shud have know it earlier..the ending shud be like this long ago...coz i can nvr learn, nvr now how to love you better...y wud i even think abt loving u?dun even deserve anymore...is right that u left...wise choice for u...thanks for everything...

1mth......is as if...a decade have pass.......

whole day rested at home...enojoy a gd sat rest...went out dinner with parents n my little brother..he does has his adorable side...
im juz so like my mum...so soft hearted..guess is always a mistake to be so...ha..
tryin to convince her tat i go learn riding...den she will talk to my dad..aha...smart rite. and she really did..heard she talkin to my dad abt it on the bus while i sit few seats away...as usual..my dad objectively told my mum dun let me ride etc..newspaper recently more n more incident abt motorbike accidents..haha..
but....maybe..i will rebel this once and only once..haha...but..v lazy, still muz take theory....hmm....

finally understand...everything is point to me...back to me..seriously..is me...am i really too much?when ppl told me wad they saw..they were stunned as well..my reaction really were wrong?dun u think u have wrong too?tat makes me....doubted so much.yes, i am wrong most of the time too..but...haiz....wads the point now?pointless to broad over everything...tats my fate..my fault....this is the punishment for my wrongs now..i, have to accept it den...my fault..im wrong....can nvr expect..this is the ending to the story.....
so many things happen in my day to day life..it will link to......us...saw seoul garden..rmb had dinner w ur family..pass by royal buffet at tampines mall..again...had ice cream..think of..how i am stuff w bread n ice cream..haha...

hate myself..y cant i fucking stop havin those memory flashes..y cant i be stronger n heartless to juz dun think abt it...y wud i still will depressed after all these happen. fuck man....cant i fucking wake up.

shall i go for riding lesson?dad keep tellin me to work n get a car..but..how to...haiz..so sian...i oso wish..if oni i even have 10k...i gna get a EG6 already..
felt like tatoo too..haha..was thinkin at either my shoulder blade or, ankle...but..if i wear shorts..is real visible..
im addited to alcohol liao la..haha..volka peach...
hmmm...really need to do some thinkin..