Friday, April 09, 2004
now is exactly 9april..it is oreadi 220 days since ....if not,it will be a yr anniversary.life goes on..alot of things happen during this period of time...but one thing remain unchange,tats is the feeling..it is something even if i wanna change,i cant.although my brain can stop thinkin,my heart cant.every single word tat came out from my mouth,is always true.but i noe,no matter how true it is now,is oreadi of not much importance to her le...ppl will think y i keep dwelling on her when im still young n there r lots of other girls out there.the reason is juz very simple,no one can replace the position of her in my heart.is real hard to find both party who really loves each other truely.both of us had found it.but too bad....is my fault..now it oreadi has happen..this is reality..im facing it oreadi.
love is not a easy things to handle.not juz abt how gd u treat n care for him or her..regretted somethings i have done..but is oreadi too late..even though i had learnt my mistakes,my confidence level for takin up other relationship has oreadi drop to abt zero oreadi n tire of the "love cycle"..except for the relationship between me n her.tats e only one tat i will really fight no matter wad.becoz i understand her through all my mistakes n from e past.i believe she is worth me waiting.....coz she is e one tat i noe i m lookin n dreamin for..now wad had happen oreadi had happen..i can only wait n hope one day i will be given the chance to be wif her til forever.one yr??five yrs??all forever??i dunno either..or maybe forever??i will juz wait..when u really found the rite person,is really very hard to accept tat u had to lose him or her..when i found mine,i was like oh man..god had let me meet e rite person..but izit abit too early???haiz.maybe shud appear after a few relationship of mine,when i really learnt n noe how to handle,den we wont be separated,such thing will not happen..god make me found her..n take away from me so soon..haiz..maybe it is my fate..cant be with the person i love..maybe if she is mine,she's mine.i will be here waiting for her n doin my studies..hope the day me holdin on to her hand,can come..juz hope tat everybody out there treasure and cherish the person u luv...once u lose it...u may not be able to get it back..dun be like me,when e time really arrives,den start to regret.tat time it will be too late..n u will be very sad like me...dun take each other for granted..i myself cant gib any comments,coz i myself oso cant handle..but tats is e thing all of u all muz remember...i hope all e couples stay happy together forever...especially my best frens...best wishes