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now june holidae gna end...haiz...veryvery long no write liao,actually there are things to write,juz tat i lazy...n dun feel like doin so..quite a no of things happen..one is camp unity...quite a bad one though...haha..rite, azi??tml start sch liao..n i nvr even touch my hw..sian..frens poly oso startin..i see them tokin abt it..quite like sian..den think y i no go poly..but den after some time, oso think im not regretted..oso dunno.haha..but i think i nvr regretted..coz i think a level suits me more...one more yr...will be it liao..den have to go army...sian sian sian..haha..sch start,think i can manage..there is feelin of goin sch,go lesson,learn n do work,but dunno y la..htink of goin yj,like bit sian sian..haha..hate PW...still muz do pw....dunno how sia...den RC..evg...muz win info quiz, n next yr footdrill com....alot of stuff to do...i muz plan for trainin some more...ar!!!! haha..but i noe i can take it..dunno y suddenly so committed to red cross oso..haha..oh ya..today is ms ng birthday.....think tml evonne they all havin tea with her,askin me...i haven confirm with her yet..haha...

now the ulp and vip has ended...my lesson oso had stop...the camp was a very fun one..is my first time being a instructor goin for a camp..and i was a mentor to group foxtrot...the cadets on the first day were not performin very well..but as time goes..they start to be more like a leader..this really gives me a sense of satisfaction...they are my first batch of cadets tat i look after in a camp..is very memorable..they even made a card for me..will keep it..hope to see them next yr ulp when they come back for the campfire...
campfire...arifah...u see rite..remember wad i said rite..haiz..is a very sad scene..den when i took camp with daniel stella n angeline go home,after all left except me n stella..on cab..we chat.den talk abt this..even stella oso agree leh..so im not over sensitive rite?haiz..but nth i can do.haha.but i noe is not her fault...she is juz like tat..
yesterday,last day of camp,i skipped lesson n go for the camp.den u see the cadets still wanna take photos wif us,wanna chat,but canot,becoz they needa leave at 5,if not hq afraid their parents wil complain..so we no choice,but to hurry them out..we saw some cried when shakin the instructors hand.so touching..after tat,is e vip debrief..after the debrief,is we instructors conductin our debrief,by andy sir..we discuss on the exercises tat being carried out,and see whether izit necessary n to see is there any improvement,basically is evaluation of all exercises..den i think next batch of vip would be tougher den my batch.i dun wanna compare wif this batch one,coz this batch one is rather slack..compare to ours,our prog tougher n more tedious.den for management crisis,all agreed tat the management crisis presently doent seems to meet its objectives,of havin a crisis compare to the past.andy sir talk abt wad exactly management crisis was like in his time..haha..tat was when he was sec3. den,next management crisis he thinks instructors will plan,no longer cadet,den cadets execute and we assess how they react to the crisis..so,he says,hu will plan,we will sort of noe hu to appoint..inferring to me..becoz,i was the plannin committee of management crisis for my batch of vic. n he saes is the better ones among all he went through. so, everybody say my name....so i think, i needa crack me brain to plan for this dec vic..arrrrr...

den now..more of the things i concern is camp unity,pw and hw,dunno how to plan oreadi.i find tat we got alot of communication brkdown for the cu planning..tat day meetin wif yo..im very fed up..tooo bad i cant do much,im juz oni a prog ic...hate it man..

today..after sch..went home..after tat went to cut hair...den eat dinner at yishun wif daniel n god bro...today..sms wif her almost all e time..tml i goin camp liao..this holiday seems short...alot of activity.june oreadi..very soon is promo exam,and her o lvl..hope the 2 of us will do very well...tml morning stil muz go back sch for pw...den rush back home and go to camp briefing at woodgrove sec.after tat,go to redcross campsite for unit leader prog camp..

today..went out with her...to sci center,for the lord of the ring exhibition.is a very enjoyable one..abt 4..we left.reach jurong pt at abt 4++..den wanna buy movie tickets..is 1830..so we bought..watchin day after tml..we went to mos burger to eat after buyin tickets...den watch movie..go home le...reach home abt 9+..

it seems like the past...but i noe it isnt...from wad she says...it gives me insecurity..i really dunno wads on her mind rite now..even if is after her o..she oso wont make any decision.haiz..i dunno wad she is thinkin now...i oso got cant do anything abt it..other den wait...and let nature take it own course...maybe now,i juz study..see how it goes..even if we r not together...at least,i still got gd grades...tats e only thing i can have in mind..haiz..love,the love from her, tats all..but is my fault,tat cause this ending..haiz..i guess is either i will have her..or i will have no one...i only left with one n a half yr be4 my ns..i guess tats is oso the time tat will determine whether will we be together i guess..coz if i go to army..i afraid me n her wil contact less..she will have her a lvl by then...unless we keep in contact,if not..no hope le..haiz...