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happy new yr everyone!!!! 2004 have become e past....2005 is ahead waitin for us....there will be a brighter tml ahead!! let our unhappiness n all e sorrows be washed away..we shall look forward to 2005 with hope and joy...

a very sad tragedy happen be4 2005..let us offer our condolences to the family of the tsunami victims..is indeed a very horrifyin disaster...

this yr is really fast...so fast til i have no time to do something...but is ok...not tat impt perhaps...i guess i have not much of regret for the yr... wad i wanted to achieve, i have achieved..things tat i noe tat i will not be able to attain, i didnt..so everything goes according to wad i predicted...now my main focus is my As...nth else..den follow by RC stuff...especially my unit...hope next yr sec1 enrolment is gd...

studies.first 3 mths, was terrific man..haha..the fun i had in 04s7a.haha..frens i have made..so nice.den canoe and dragon boat trainins were so fun even though i have to spend sat & sun at kallang sea sports club for trainins..but is fun..but gettin into yj, i oso dunno whether it is a blessin, or misfortune .when im there, i have no stress..as e lects n tuts are slow..i have no prob catchin up.and is so near my house( and oso my unit), i can take cab to unit trainin or sch if im late.haha.but i do not like tat life in yj.is not as happenin as ny..no matter wad, is i who choose yj myself..but i noe i oso wont like JJ..wadever it is, i make this choice.i will follow through..and sit for my A and get wad i want...for promos i did my best...though results are not wad i set for myself, i noe i did my best...i can achieve better, but it would only be possible, if i have no leisure time n life...which i would nvr want..this yr i had enjoyed myself enough..next yr, i will study and study!!! i will sacrifice my free time n entertainment...coz it will gna be e last yr....i wil not let it screw up...and i cant..

redcross...after graduation, i have helped out in several events...still remember, the first event is WRCD..haha..and is oso our first time wearin uniform..still can remember the kind of excitement and feelin i had..next is when sir send me e email, giving me e chance to take up e role in cwo office..this is gna be e best offer..in the process of fulfillin my task as acwo, i have alot of fun..is an enjoyable and meaninful experience... RC 55th anniversary fancy drill, the 6 of us went through alot and get things done..is such a major event...there is sense of satisfaction..in ULP, joan n i both are mentor for Foxtrot...is my first time bein a mentor..will nvr forget tat..my "children".haha..hope i will see most of them next dec VIP..yeah ;] ?.NDC, nvr help out,but i went for e campfire..but i went to EDC as mentor..haha..weird rite?a north VI who does not help out in north district camp..haha..is becoz of the plannin of e cluster camp, i cant help it either...den SDC as helper for south quest.last and e most recent one, dec 04 VIP, badge 03/05..is a very nice camp..wad i see on first day of camp, and last day of the prog, is a contrast..when they enter, they still have e cadets look.when they leave, i wud sae most of them, possess the image of instructor (i noe my seniors will say the same when im still a trainee, now im instructor, i understand oreadi ;] )..the minority shud noe themselves..haha..through all e outings with them,i see their true colours..haha..shud be all..next yr, i might not be so active, due to As..but events tat i would not miss will be the VIP and ULP..haha..i will nvr miss tat 2 man..my unit, is like gettin more slack..the cadets are spoilt..there isnt any FD trainin on dec..is not my yo dun want, is tat they will not turn up..so no point havin..and i cant do much next yr..first is 5 day work wk, trainin gna be on thurs, second is is my yr2..haiz..feel helpless..i oso dunno wad im suppose to do.. my sec3s, they took their initiatives in takin part in talentime, which i knew it juz last wk.and they even went back to sch to do banner for e cca recruitment day..it is very nice..i'm so glad when i saw the banner n they told me they actually went back sch to paint it...

frenship...after leavin sec sch..i have been left out by one clique of fren...i think they noe who are they..i think i shud not be sad abt it..if they are my true fren, they will always be..so i think this is a test to prove...is so not me when i regard he n e grp r my fren...went through alot of complicated prob..n be frens..i really treated him as my fren..close fren..but nvr noe..i sort of make e wrong judgement..he is not a man of his word...really disappointed for me..coz i make a wrong step...but he is afterall a nice guy...juz tat..too bad...is a waste...
my clique of frens, none of them in jc...all poly..so diff now..my best fren studyin in stansfield..his indonesian frens are oso stayin n studyin with him..we have less time out..but he will try to keep in touch...miss him n e grp...e time we spent..e memories..lucky still got daniel..haha..perhaps he oso in redcross, so e dist is not tat great...and we have common interest..mahjong, cars, soccer, billiard, and same frequency( very impt)..but i noe tats e fact of life...circles of fren will get smaller as one grow old...cherish n treasure them...frens r e most impt ppl in my life...i luv all of them....

love ones...my parents n brothers,haha..i think im not a gd brother..my relation with my brother is not tat gd..though we nvr dislike each other, we seldom talk..they are juz too diff from me..their topic n my topic very diff..im so much more mature than them..i care for them..juz tat is not easy for me to show..i dunno y either...but i will try my best now...
my luv life is nvr successful...i cant put everything into words..is impossible...coz is like 2yrs of struggle..haha...but wad i can say is...i noe is quite impossible for me n her to be together...unless..miracle..haha..but i wont let such thing obstruct me from achievin more impt goals of my life...although my ideal dream is have a fulfillin family..i noe this kind of thing...we cant decide...wad is more impt is my career n future now....

i shall end here with these quotes:
The two hardest things to handle in life are failure and success.
Don't aim for success if you want it; just do what you love and believe in, and it will come naturally.
The closer one gets to the top, the more one finds there is no "top."
Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.
You can't have any successes unless you can accept failure.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!yesterday, went to bbq at andy's sir office...it was enjoyable....!we stayed til 8 am this mornin and have our breakfast den went home...and i slept til 3 plus...everyone is havin fun at the bbq...e juniors r very active..they do not feel tire at all..early in e mornin 6 am go round joggin..oh my god..haha...n some of us are stil at andy's sir office restin...though me rui xian maam n jian fu sir are not slpin..

wed, meet the juniors at 1130 at tanjong pagar for the food trail they organised...khoo yu is e one planned for it..gd job khoo yu!! is fun la..and food is nice as well...earlier im e only instructor..e rest all joinin us at 530 in e evenin..afternoon we went to tanjong pagar hawker center to eat, den we walk to people park for yong tau foo, den we go walk walk at majestic..and we went to arcade....and is abt evenin time..we went to maxwell for our dinner..we walked from chinatown to singapore river n sit there idle for quite a while..after tat, we go to suntec carrefour to buy sushi..becoz is closin time, so sushi will be sellin at a very cheap rate..haha..den me yu ching poh huat joan edwin n mizael walk damn fast to reach there..haha.we den proceed to rafflescity out side cafe cartel there to eat n rest..den e other instructors joined us with some juniors left...and me edwin mizael fiona wei shan ying sheng shu hui yu hui and 2 juniors went home...left with joan poh huat and yu ching there...is a tiring day, as im out e whole day...

today, i woke at 0630!!! left home at 7..took 168 to tampines, den train to paya lebar...meet the juniors for bball....so long since i played bball, and is for so long..guess wad, we play from mornin til 6...i cant imagine this..i did it..haha...i played so long is when we having bball in sch n with my coach team...tat was hell...haha...today, i played for almost 4-6 hours...now, im so tanned...and body is aching..haha...and today, i met a girl who wont feel tire..haha..she is so active..guess who..is chiu tong..she keeps on askin us to play full court..and she can play non stop...seriously,she is e first girl i came across who is so active...we play til 9 plus, went to mac for breakfast...saw man yiu and ching huey there studyin...after tat, we went back n play...den we had our lunch, and continue to play..i cant believe myself oso...all of us are so tire, and chiu tong can still says "full court"..oh my god..haha..even when we abt to go..she still so energetic...i have nvr touch bball for a very long time... today i did enjoyed myself..and have a fun time with the juniors....

today, when i first grab the ball,the feelin is so diff..and i cant feel that kind of speed and momentum in me anymore..cant imagine if i gna play with my frens...but the interest is still long lost...i juz dun have e urge anymore..unlike the past...

tml, goin out with the juniors again..this time is food..haha..wanted to meet them at 530 like other instructor..but khoo yu ask me to go in the afternoon...perhaps..shall meet them early..

today, rot again...woke up and had brunch....den lie around in e living room,felt aslp...den evenin meet daniel stella n angelia for dinner...after dinner at causeway point, we go to civic mac sit n chat til 8 plus...juz got home...sian...this is e worst holiday in my life....my frens!!! henry and denys went back indonesia, den leonard oso not free...miss the time spent with them...wonder abt n do nth..haha...so fun...now...so lonely...so sian!!!! my holiday gna end juz like tat....and next yr i will die....As....haiz...

yesterday, was e last contact session of VIP dec 2004..tat marks at end to VIP dec 04...although there will be other session for the re-tests, this is e official end to VIP.compare with them juz entering VIP and now leavin, there is some things they brought home..some are geting the look and style of instructor..there is some sense of satisfaction..especially their camp reports..read tat instructor appraisal, u get to see wad they comment abt u urself..hope wadever they state there is from the bottom of their heart...now, we have juniors.shows tat we are getting old liao..haha..hope to see this badge work together and come back together as one...after the contact session,we went to hans for dinner again..tats e only place will not be crowded at tat time..got me,edwin,mizael, sarah, eng kee sir, joan, poh huat,yu ching, eusoff, jian fu sir, and andy sir..after eatin, we wanna go coffee..in the end, oni me, edwin, mizael eng kee sir, jian fu sir, and andy sir went to coffee club...andy sir told me n edwin tat he has something for us to do for june VIP liao...but dun wanna tell us until june..we think tat our job shud not require much preparation work, coz if it does, den how can we prepare when we noe only in june, and e camp is in june...i dun mind doin anything this time...perhaps, not mentor and logistic will be better..haha...

today, at 4plus, i went to take my pay..after tat, meet daniel for dinner be4 he goes to work. he left for work, and i took bus 162 to orchard. i went to wisma, den taka. after tat, i walked to suntec.. very sian...wanted to go to beach, but weather does not permit me. not to bad..on e way to suntec, get to see lancer Evo 8.5, integra (1 red and 1 white), fairlady, RX8, jaguar x-type,porsche boxster, and the best one is ferrari!!! ferrari modena...it turns right infront of me at a junction..is yellow colour some more...whoohoooo!!!! haha... i bought one coin pouch and a ear phone. today abit sian..now reach home, gna slp soon though i noe i cant slp so soon, tml needa go hq for evac accred.

tats the BMW 6 series.. i still think lexus sc 430 is nicer.haha...but juz put for fun..coz is new..perhaps is not very new..out for a few months le ba..

today, went to HQ at 10 to help sort and pack letters tat r to be sent out to volunteers regardin update on particulars..the VIP campfire committee is oso there. there r fiona and fiona(instructor to be), (haha), wei shan, stella (left at 2 plus), chee keong sir, eileen, sharlyn, edwin (instructor to be), cedric, and 2 HCJC students who wanna clock CIP hours. after packing, went to park mall for dinner. den me angeline eng kee sir and wei shan go suntec for shoppin and help eng kee sir look for his wanted stuffs. after tat, went coffee bean for coffee.. den we chat. and wei shan scare me again..she said our yr, 21 den can learn driving..haiz..muz check with my fren again, as his dad is driving instructor. so sure wont be wrong one.haha.but the other time he told me is still 18..21 is juz rumours...i really dunno now..hope dun disappoint me..haiz..my birthday wish is juz to learn driving... and hopefully, be4 i go ns, i get my license...and can drive a cabriolet with my love ones..and bring them for a ride around Singapore...tats a dream of mine..even if im single, i wud still want this..coz...got car can liao..haha...noe is abit not realistic, as i have no frens who have cabriolet...but is ok..they lend me their car oso can liao...haha..but the more realistic car tat i can own is, suzuki swift gti..tat wud still be abit more affordable for me when i passed.haha..but i long wanted to own a honda EK9, which is ex..license license.... let me get u!!!

camp is over!!! yesterday, after camp, edwin and mizael accompany back to HQ to return logistic. the rest went to bedok mac. after goin HQ, the 3 of us and angeline went to ps kfc for lunch. den she give us a lift home. all of us slept on e cab.haha..after reach home, take a shower, and slack til abt 8plus 9, went to bed...

finally, all e camps are over. VIP is fun. but is less tough compare to us..hopefully they are bonded as one, and come help events as one too. we have a fun, and tiring time in camp..haha...yesterday, we sang daniel birthday song..but he is so tire to go out, and today has lesson, so we didnt go out to celebrate..

today is VIP dec 04 precamp. finally our big day has come. many of us are lookin forward to this camp. we muz make it the best camp ever.! juz like wad jian fu sir wish. later will be meetin joan, den we go hq collect log and go to campsite with van. but im still feelin sick.. hope i will recover soon. dun wanna be sick in camp..it is horrible...i wana go all outdoor prog, dun wanna stay in campsite first aid base!!!

yesterday, is VIP first contact session..rather ok, juz tat we feel tat the trainees are not ready for camp yet. after the contact session,we went to marina south for steam boat, and is a gathering for 01/04. we had a fun time there, though i was not feelin very well at that time..legs are aching, n throat very uneasy. reach home at abt 1130. after bath went to bed straight. til today, wake up at 12.

edc is over..the camp is very enjoyable..the atmosphere of the camp is indeed very positive, and e campfire is one of the better ones tat i went through be4.im very tire now..perhaps, talk more next time..tml stil have to wake early n go South quest recce.