Tuesday, December 28, 2004
happy new yr everyone!!!! 2004 have become e past....2005 is ahead waitin for us....there will be a brighter tml ahead!! let our unhappiness n all e sorrows be washed away..we shall look forward to 2005 with hope and joy...
a very sad tragedy happen be4 2005..let us offer our condolences to the family of the tsunami victims..is indeed a very horrifyin disaster...
this yr is really fast...so fast til i have no time to do something...but is ok...not tat impt perhaps...i guess i have not much of regret for the yr... wad i wanted to achieve, i have achieved..things tat i noe tat i will not be able to attain, i didnt..so everything goes according to wad i predicted...now my main focus is my As...nth else..den follow by RC stuff...especially my unit...hope next yr sec1 enrolment is gd...
studies.first 3 mths, was terrific man..haha..the fun i had in 04s7a.haha..frens i have made..so nice.den canoe and dragon boat trainins were so fun even though i have to spend sat & sun at kallang sea sports club for trainins..but is fun..but gettin into yj, i oso dunno whether it is a blessin, or misfortune .when im there, i have no stress..as e lects n tuts are slow..i have no prob catchin up.and is so near my house( and oso my unit), i can take cab to unit trainin or sch if im late.haha.but i do not like tat life in yj.is not as happenin as ny..no matter wad, is i who choose yj myself..but i noe i oso wont like JJ..wadever it is, i make this choice.i will follow through..and sit for my A and get wad i want...for promos i did my best...though results are not wad i set for myself, i noe i did my best...i can achieve better, but it would only be possible, if i have no leisure time n life...which i would nvr want..this yr i had enjoyed myself enough..next yr, i will study and study!!! i will sacrifice my free time n entertainment...coz it will gna be e last yr....i wil not let it screw up...and i cant..
redcross...after graduation, i have helped out in several events...still remember, the first event is WRCD..haha..and is oso our first time wearin uniform..still can remember the kind of excitement and feelin i had..next is when sir send me e email, giving me e chance to take up e role in cwo office..this is gna be e best offer..in the process of fulfillin my task as acwo, i have alot of fun..is an enjoyable and meaninful experience... RC 55th anniversary fancy drill, the 6 of us went through alot and get things done..is such a major event...there is sense of satisfaction..in ULP, joan n i both are mentor for Foxtrot...is my first time bein a mentor..will nvr forget tat..my "children".haha..hope i will see most of them next dec VIP..yeah ;] ?.NDC, nvr help out,but i went for e campfire..but i went to EDC as mentor..haha..weird rite?a north VI who does not help out in north district camp..haha..is becoz of the plannin of e cluster camp, i cant help it either...den SDC as helper for south quest.last and e most recent one, dec 04 VIP, badge 03/05..is a very nice camp..wad i see on first day of camp, and last day of the prog, is a contrast..when they enter, they still have e cadets look.when they leave, i wud sae most of them, possess the image of instructor (i noe my seniors will say the same when im still a trainee, now im instructor, i understand oreadi ;] )..the minority shud noe themselves..haha..through all e outings with them,i see their true colours..haha..shud be all..next yr, i might not be so active, due to As..but events tat i would not miss will be the VIP and ULP..haha..i will nvr miss tat 2 man..my unit, is like gettin more slack..the cadets are spoilt..there isnt any FD trainin on dec..is not my yo dun want, is tat they will not turn up..so no point havin..and i cant do much next yr..first is 5 day work wk, trainin gna be on thurs, second is is my yr2..haiz..feel helpless..i oso dunno wad im suppose to do.. my sec3s, they took their initiatives in takin part in talentime, which i knew it juz last wk.and they even went back to sch to do banner for e cca recruitment day..it is very nice..i'm so glad when i saw the banner n they told me they actually went back sch to paint it...
frenship...after leavin sec sch..i have been left out by one clique of fren...i think they noe who are they..i think i shud not be sad abt it..if they are my true fren, they will always be..so i think this is a test to prove...is so not me when i regard he n e grp r my fren...went through alot of complicated prob..n be frens..i really treated him as my fren..close fren..but nvr noe..i sort of make e wrong judgement..he is not a man of his word...really disappointed for me..coz i make a wrong step...but he is afterall a nice guy...juz tat..too bad...is a waste...
my clique of frens, none of them in jc...all poly..so diff now..my best fren studyin in stansfield..his indonesian frens are oso stayin n studyin with him..we have less time out..but he will try to keep in touch...miss him n e grp...e time we spent..e memories..lucky still got daniel..haha..perhaps he oso in redcross, so e dist is not tat great...and we have common interest..mahjong, cars, soccer, billiard, and same frequency( very impt)..but i noe tats e fact of life...circles of fren will get smaller as one grow old...cherish n treasure them...frens r e most impt ppl in my life...i luv all of them....
love ones...my parents n brothers,haha..i think im not a gd brother..my relation with my brother is not tat gd..though we nvr dislike each other, we seldom talk..they are juz too diff from me..their topic n my topic very diff..im so much more mature than them..i care for them..juz tat is not easy for me to show..i dunno y either...but i will try my best now...
my luv life is nvr successful...i cant put everything into words..is impossible...coz is like 2yrs of struggle..haha...but wad i can say is...i noe is quite impossible for me n her to be together...unless..miracle..haha..but i wont let such thing obstruct me from achievin more impt goals of my life...although my ideal dream is have a fulfillin family..i noe this kind of thing...we cant decide...wad is more impt is my career n future now....
i shall end here with these quotes:
The two hardest things to handle in life are failure and success.
Don't aim for success if you want it; just do what you love and believe in, and it will come naturally.
The closer one gets to the top, the more one finds there is no "top."
Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.
You can't have any successes unless you can accept failure.