Blog of ShawnTPB.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Had a very intensive day today...had lesson for 6hrs..with 15mins br every 2 hrs...reached saturation point...after tat rushed down unit for aop....brain dead...and tml is gp essay...which i dunno how to pass....have been gettin a fail grade for gp....which i really dunno how for As...there is nth i can do...after gp, meeting my maths tutor to do a paper 1 timed piece...den can slack for the wk liao..yeah..haha..coz wed teachers' day celebration..thurs no lesson....fri chem prac exam...yeah...den after tat will be holiday.which oso means preparation for prelims.....

sometimes, there are really things which i do not understand y it is so...and i believe no one can tell....

road to success is tough....once reached,ppl thought it would be a relieved..but in reality..is no....becoz sustaining is even tougher...it's a nvr ending sorrow....sad to see it coming down....

the peak of a mountain is definitely unable to hold everyone...tends to be some1 at the bottom...
Being at the top, is a nvr ending hardwork..as it needs to be sustain..but wad is gd is the nice scenery & fresh air ....
Being at the bottom, is nvr able to enjoy the fresh air & scenery....but wad is gd is the stress free and contented life...which one u wud prefer? somewhere in the middle of the mountain? can anyone have the best of both world...?If yes...i would want to be the one...

Sunday, August 28, 2005

I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He saidBoy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
And I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first towm we come to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:

If you get ther before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and seeAnd between now and then
Until I see you againI'll be loving you . . .Love, Me

I read those words just hours
Before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to prayI know I never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said those words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on meI'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you againI'll be loving you . . .Love, Me

And between now and thenUntil I see you againI'll be loving you . . .Love, Me

Sighz

Saturday, August 27, 2005

lesson this wk is real boring...lookin forward to next wk..coz, got holiday...and it is the last wk for term3...last but not least...unit camp....

Tml goin drivin lesson at 1430....no, i shud say today's afternoon..haha...is already 0042 hrs....

Monday, August 22, 2005

shall blog..be4 i turn in....

Change
Change is indeed essential in life...different stages of life, u experience various changes....wad is gone, is gone....it has changed....one thing it cannot be changed, is past....history...who could possibly change history? if one can, it would be fantastic.....since is impossible to change the past...therefore, wad we can do is to make sure we live to no regrets....again...is this possible??is there any regret u have left behind? i think i have....But i cant really list it down explicitly....

Things have been smooth sailing for my this 18 yrs in this world.....can consider to have nothing obstructed my way all these yrs of progress...no matter how bad things turn out to be, there is way out for me....PSLE, there is a choice of express of normal acad...can say tat i make the rite choice of express despite the fact tat my form teacher discouraged me to....sec1 is my turnin point....able to maintain in the stream all the way to sec4 though eng has been the weakest subject.....Os..still manage to get a c5 for eng...though result is bad n prohibits me in gettin into NY...im still able to pursue my As....Few mths more, will be the final hurdle..is really the final to me..the road infront i have already identified...the prob now is...am i still able to open this door to my next part of journey? if is gna be lock, wad am i gna do? have no idea...coz i have nvr fall be4, need not to say fall flat with the steepest gradient....might juz not be able to accept it......Believe it is planned....shall oni accept....pray for the best.....

A curve has its max point..the faster it reaches the peak....basically implies the faster it reaches the min point....sometimes the faster u go, it might not be as gd as you think....do u believe in turnin point? or is mine a point of inflexion with no max & min turnin point?

Uncertain

Sunday, August 21, 2005

"With time and patience the mulberry leaf becomes a silk gown."

How true is tat?can time and patience solve everything?and transform everything into silk gown?

"The Constitution only gives people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself."

and catch it at the right timing...becoz...happiness is when u found e right 1 at the right time...but it is sadness when u found e right 1 at the wrong time...

Indeed, timing is still important...perhaps it cannot transform it into a silk gown...but it can turn something upside down with a happy ever ending....nothing is impt to some1's other than happiness...

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

Monday, August 15, 2005

3 keys to open my heart. So near yet so far.....when can i get it?wait for.....1yr?..2yrs??or more to go.....cant wait to have it immediately.....but i noe, is impossible.....

Waiting for you...........

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Went to raffles place at 6pm yesterday to meet van, miz, evonne and ambrose...yu hui, joan, wei shan, and khoo yu joined us at hans after tat...after our dinner, we went to tcc at circular road, and khoo yu left home to study...the service was rather bad, and all of us are complainin..haha...as we are required to pay the 10% service charge...we took a walk to the riverside, took a photo there...we lft the place at abt 11plus..headin to joan's house for mahjong....initially wanted to meet ys daniel for k..but like borin..so in the end mahjong...wanted to k though it will oni make me think more, but i juz wanna k it all out..as there is something in my mind now..which i dunno y oso..since when im experiencin it..oh no....i cannot like this..sigh..

Mahjong is fun..commendable...thanks pal..for the winnings..though i feel bad..everytime i win u all so much..but dun worry..next time i will lose it back...is like tat one..is always fair, it will rotate and luck will find anyone of u one day...My mum was saying, she played mahjong for 20 over yrs, oso nvr get 8 flowers..haha...and i got 8 flowers..i think is ys u super unlucky...haha..plus me being a little lucky today?haha..i think the probability is 148 choose 8 over 148 permutate 14 divide by 4 factorial?? i oso dunno..haha..tats wad i think...not sure if is correct...really dunno wad to say other den im so lucky..haha....

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

i was with ms bok, roc, ys, qijun,daniel, stella, evonne and, andy sir join us later, playing basketball last nite...out with them is forever fun...cheer my day up....after tat andy sir joined us for supper...reached home 12 i guess..

Happy birthday Dad.....

Monday, August 08, 2005

It has come to a time i have such feeling....think is time to leave them...it seems that they want to be independent...am i pressing them? i dunno...but i think now, it makes no more diff to have me....and they seem to do better with my absence..and they oso want to be on their own...guess i will go after this..is time..and i have to anyway..though reluctant...tats part of journey of life..to part and to leave....hopefully they can make it there...and i wud be more happy than them i guess...i have give my best..all the way ppl....u have come so far...

The previous one is better..the sense of attachment is there.compare to this time round...and i get to see them through..hope that they can join us.....

All the way ppl..and to the greater heights.....

shall end off with this....
Success is not the result of spontaneous combustion. You must set yourself on fire. -ReggieLeach-

First of all....Congrats to my ULP cadets...Im very happy for them....Just that all of you really need to build up your confidence level..very impt...leaders have to be confident....and I believe all of u are up to it....Proud of you all....wont forgetting my ex-chair who got her director award...well done ppl..

Today enjoyed myself..haha...is always so fun hanging out with them..ms bok...lolx..no need to say..tml gna go evg in e mornin to witness the parade...den i go polyclinic..haha..after tat go home some revision...evenin meeting to play bball...woohooo..relax rite...and my prelims are comin...but im studyin for As..not prelims...

Drivin lessons are cool..so cool...think now, if im given a car, i can drive out liao...really find tat drivin an auto car is no prob...juz like drivn a gold cart...so simple....but no auto for me...coz wad i want is the torque...and the "pssssss" sound...hahaha...

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Dunno wad to blog...i only know that im down with sore eyes....conjuctiva infection...aRh!!!!! MC for yesterday and today....breaks my momemtum for revision....now really lost...dunno start from where....and i have make up my mind of wad to do after my As.....it has oreadi been set....hope it is not a wrong choice....i hope...

Been missing trainings...and been missing them....hopefuly by thurs....i can go down...and is a muz...coz it will be e last ndp training..i have to see how's their drills....