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Got back my chem..really failed...failed by a few marks...still left with phy and gp...


today, NTU lecturer prof leung ban hin came to my college..gave a talk on chemistry...really inspired me alot...chemist can become all other profession, like chemical engineer, life scientiet..but a chemical engineer cannot become a chemist....which is very true...haha...so hope tat i can get into ntu, sch of physical & mathematics sciences (spms)....major in chemistry & biological chemistry...


the song wo zhen de shuo shang le by jacky cheung..i like it...haha....too bad i cant blog in chi.the web page show funny things..even though i change e encodin, the chi words come out, is not wad it is supposed to be..but is a nice song...who wanna catch Andy lau's movie? i want to..but dunno wanna watch with who...alone go watch.sian leh..but den...i have to study....sigh...

got back my maths papers..result for paper 1 is wad i expected...but, paper 2 is not..far below..wad to do..since i nvr practise... i have decided to start my revision tml!. which is in 2 mins time...i muz time myself for a 3hrs paper...this time...i gna make sure i can get a A for my C.maths...


My chem tutor hinted to me durin tutorial when he gave up prac paper..which i score rather high....he said, "u nvr study ar?"...after the tutorial, i chatted with him..when i said i fail, he didnt give any comment, so i assume is a yes...i told him tat out of 10 qns for paper 2, i oni completed 6...and the others 4 i noe how to do, juz tat no time...let him understand that i lack of time, he oso told me to prac...he noes tat my concept is aright...juz tat i cant afford to think in exam for each qns..thus, i really needa prac...i will really heed his advice....


I have told myself...use this 1 mth to really mug...ppl..i noe u all are not gna believe me..haha...coz i oso cant believe myself...as i have nvr really mugged...but for the sake of my future, my dream car...my love ones....i have to!!! i have determined to do tat..i muz...is a waste when u are unable to achieve outstandin results when u actually are capable of...i shall not live with regrets! this shall motivate me...til the end.....and i shall enjoy the mths of holiday with ease of mind...driving ard if i passed my driving test on 9 DEC as well!!


after readin it, i feel tat is referrin to me?Am i being too sensitive and thinkin too much? i dunno...hope tat it could be the truth....so wad if is true or not..? wad can i do rite..?

Going to sch in abt 8 hrs time...Though sch has already reopened for abt 2 wks, there is no lesson....becoz, it was my prelims....Now goin back to sch for lesson, is like so funny..seems like everything has been taught..syllabus has completed...in some sense hope tat As start asap,get over n done with.....but oso like is an major exam...hope tat it doesnt come...wad to do...


Now i have the studyin mood..the mood to do ten yrs series...haha...but i haven start....guess soon i will be startin...the mood of doin n writing is comin..haha..weird me....

Silvia S15 is cool....more than wad i expected....envy my cousin....when oni can i own such car?i dun think i can.....but nvm...hope that i can borrow from me..hahaha...the interior is gd...very leather feeling...and is low...got torque.....a nice trip on fri morning...


Goin marina south later..to meet my bro and batchmates...to celebrate his belated bday.....


Day after day......the feeling is still inside...sigh...when can it be vanished?ArG!!! is so torturing.....heart and mind is not working together.....


Sigh

Headline in straitstimes is tat coe is droppin..haa...can see how much it flunctuates.....inside info is tat is rising, yet after the review, it drops.and the number of deregistered vehicle is the highest in Singapore for this yr..haha...so the number of coe issue will be more now....


So excited..tml i will be goin for breakfast at chinatown....is not becoz of the venue or the food, but the car tat i am takin to go there...haha...is SILVIA S15!!!! belongs to my cousin's...looking forward to tat man...woohoo....superb man!

My prelims have ended....48 more days to my A lvl written papers...abt 3 more wks to my first prac exam....and 79 days to my drving test...after these 2 things are completed, my mind will be free from all things...nth else to be complete for this yr anymore..nth..juz wait for enlistment day to come...tats all...woohoo...hope tat i can get my class 3 in this yr...is my dream! able to drive be4 i get enlisted..drive around alone..with mind free from all thoughts...want to learn circuit racin..muz ask my cousin to intro me...now wad i needa do is to save up to buy a "decent" car....den oni i can buy my dream carS....haha...


Was thinkin of gettin a off peak Kia Picanto...now is $22000 manual basic model...add $3000 for the sports model...comes with fog light,side skirt, rims, and sports grill...is quite affordable...but im still thinkin of whether shud i get it next yr.....instalments plus hidden cost will be abt $500-$600 per mth...though is not a Honda/Mitsubishi, it is afterall a "decent" car..can hold on to it for a few yrs...den after a few yrs, let go n get a honda..
Undecided


And anyway, COE is on the rising trend...and the peak is predicted to be in Feb 2006..so ppl out there who wanna get a new car, grab it be4 it reaches the peak...

Spent first half of yesterday with my Sec3s at ECP...they had an outing together..me evonne n karin are present..had a really fun time with them...on top of tat, i oso wanted to go to beach for quite some time...did a video for my graduating Sec4s...so fast...one batch under my batch of VIs is graduating...and next yr would be this Sec3 batch...but i think ma'am Karin is gna scream at me...she see my batch from Sec1 til we graduated..n noe tat we had already served for abt 2 yrs as VIs...is really fast...juz hope tat this carries on...and to a greater heights..cant see it to go down..At abt 645..they decided to leave....there n den me parted with them...evonne n ma'am karin left with them..


meet my god bro at mac's carpark...went to changi village hotel to have buffet..is $35+++....so add up is abt $40...the spread is not alot..but since we reach there, and the restaurant up there is italian restaurant whereby serving is usually smaller portion(and we r very hungry).so stil go for the buffet...think vienna is better....afterall, the ambience is slightly better..coz is a 4star hotel i think....eat until we are super fulled.i cannot even walk when i realised after tryin to walk..haha.


Really had a very very gd time yesterday...

I said i will update yesterday...but den..now den i update..haha..guess wad?is 0530 now..haha..juz got home..out with my frens n godbro...haha...and im goin to ECP later..with my committee...so fast...this 2005 is comin to an end...any the this committee is oso goin to be "due" soon...haha...think this is the second batch i see them through from committee to graduation...but i juz feel tat the time this batch has is like so short...juz dunno y....they will be the 4th batch liao...next yr will be the 5th..fast isnt it?i oso cant believe i graduated from tat sch for 2 yrs liao...hope by next yr...they can achieve wad we believe.....


Anyway, i gna wish Happy 18th Birthday to my bro...Mizael..haha...though i had send my greetings...


after 4 papers..or shud i say.5 papers (phy P1 & P2, chem P3, maths P1 & P2)...i concluded...As is all abt practising and memorising...is a definite..except for 1 qns, data analysis in phy..the rest all require practise and memorisin..i really dun understand...y muz the education system make students to be like tat...Os i dun believe in doin tys...i always apply wad i learnt...still manageable..BUT..As..is a NO..becoz, the paper is set in a way tat once u look at the qns, u muz start writing out the answer..no time for u to pause n think...i make a calculation...is average of 14 mins per qns...and each qns has many sub qns, like part a(i), b etc....so..how the hell to complete...i tried..for today phy paper 2, i complete first qns in abt 15mins..subsequently, i nvr keep track anymore...and paper 1 is mcq...As is all abt time management n die hard practising n memorisin...i feel so sad...we are told not to juz study wad we r required to noe for exam, do not memorise, and apply wad u learn base on situation..contradictorily,the system does not help but yet making things the other way...I really have to do TYS now! Hate it...when i look through all the qns...i can do...but are all blank...so helpless...is juz becoz of....time...timimg..back to my post duno how entries be4..abt time again...sigh...TIME!!!!!!


When can everything be so timely for me? when can they arrive? is really so near yet so far.....

Maths paper 1 ended...i dunno how's the performance...i oni noe tat the moment i hold on my pen n start to write..i feel so..awkward....1 wk nvr write...Wed is chem P3..tat is to say, i have to study the option topic, organic, and physical chem....tats alot...haha..but can manage..coz it is not MATHS!


Though now is exam period..i juz dun feel the exam mood and atmosphere...my mind is full of thoughts...not on academic...y it has to be at this moment..??and i noe is rather useless thinkin abt it..coz is nvr gna be tat way...sigh..i feelin so miserable now..i can oni do tat every nite..routine at a specific time...nvr missed..but i dun think is understood..but it juz cant leave my brain & heart....though im thinkin abt maths last nite...but is not e maths im suppose to do..interest 3%..times 10 plus principal amt divide by 120....ar!!

how can Arsenal concede 1 goal to Middlesbro...Arg!! Arsenal deserve to win...boro is so lucky....juz by the luck...Tat make Arsenal concede....sigh...


CT9A09....currently is $155000 plus for the GSR model..whereas for GT model is 20k cheaper..make a calculation...if takin a full loan for 10 yrs..is abt $1700 per mth...haha..provided is full load....when can i own it...?tat amt of money, can own a mercedes c-class....haha..think i can only own it when i turn 30?hopefully...Lancer ralliart turbo model is abt 80k...and is auto..no manual..sigh...y cant it be manual...isnt it more practical for it to be a manual...?I muz save up...and own a EK9....if not..EG6 will do as well...willing to sacrifice my lifestyle for it.. my "wife"..haha...next time no oakley..no nike..less billiard..less kbox..less "high class" coffee..less ex food..BUT nvm..it is worthwhile...coz is my "wife"...

later have to go dhoby ghaut for meetin..for first aid com briefin...help out as roc maam really short of ppl...think even if i stay at home, i wont be studyin..haha..dunno wad to do after meetin...feel like playin billiard...yesterday juz played with my gd fren..haha..shall play billiard...haha...

First time drove durin rainy day...not much different..think i can really drive liao...again, test is always about luck..sigh..hope i can clear it just for once...cant wait to drive alone....


to all kind soul out there..haha...im very touched tat ppl are worried abt me and ask me to study..really can feel tat there are alot of ppl concern and care abt me..tats y i say, frens are always impt..i can live without a gf..but cant without frens...haha...dun worry..i will manage..and will study one...hope all of you excel in ur work...ppl lookin for job..hope u all find a gd 1 soon..ppl workin..work hard..wish u all get wage raise...yr end comin..implies bonus comin too..haha...take care all..

sometimes i really wonder..will i really be happy after wad i am doing now...wads the point of getting those things..am i one who can really live without tat?can i still be happy even if i have wad i want??am i juz tryin to cheat myself??i feel it is coming again...but it seems very wrong...wad shud i do...i really dunno....izit really too early now??there are still ppl can make it..though is the very minority...y cant i??y cant it happen on me??think is very true..something the more u wanna get it...the more u cant get it....ironically, if u are indifferent about it, it comes to u very naturally....think everything have been wonderful..but y not this as well?perhaps god is fair...but which 1 wud i prefer??i oso dunno...but i noe im not one tat can live without it.....

Term 3 has ended....One wk of break and it will be my prelims...


No more RC for the time being...cannot go down unit for training...juz returned from their camp...guess the next time i go down will be in the holidays...nov/dec....shall not say miss them..rite, evonne?haha...but guess u all shud noe if i will miss them...haha..

Today is teacher's day...happy teacher's day to all the teacher's who have taught me...as if they noe i had wished them...


Went back evg yesterday...it reminds me of sec1 teacher's day....so much fun..and get into trouble...met up with some of my zhu peng guo you...have a talk...time passed real fast...used to play bball everyday after sch with them...stay in sch til the gate closes den we head home..sometimes nvr even go home...went to play bball at fushan...tats the crazy period..so active, so sporty....now i think of it..i dun think i can take it...play one hr intensive can make me lie flat on the ground...haha.. but the time is really really fun....weekend would hang out with them...either go town..if not play billiard or meet up to eat den bball again...all these had turn into memory...tats so fast...two yrs passed so fast without feelin it has actually passed us...miss the fighting spirit..miss the fun...miss the wildness...but now...have lost touch with them liao...perhaps..is different frequency now...maybe is not now..is from the start..juz tat last time we still can integrate...but knowin and meeting them is nvr a wrong choice...i miss them...all the best pals...though none of them noe my blog..izit sad or joy..i dunno...


Met with the teachers after tat..coz the poor teachers have lesson til 1pm..they are all the same...have a gd time with them...they are really the best teachers in the world..full of knowledge..and yet can teach and pass to us so well..they have make all the lessons so interesting and fun..i really dun mind goin back and go through again..is really so enjoyable..though we grumble...which student wud not grumble when there is lesson...the time spent with them in the classrooms, was really superb..think no other teachers can do tat..plus student like us, really make it so perfect..haha..not self appraisal..but is a fact....our society juz need them...but is hard to find now...without them...i dun think im able to reach here...thanks so much..if there is really a form of recognition to teachers, i think they shud receive first...Im really so fortunate to have all of them..all the gd teachers...sad to say...i still did not make full use of them...and i didnt make all of them and myself proud...


One grade really makes alot of difference..especially between a 1 & 2...i wud nvr forget the time i receive my O lvl result slip....i burst into tears....to think back..is no use...is something i cannot amend...is really gna be a remorseful memory in life...i feel so like hitting myself....im not doin justice to her and myself...y?!?! y cant it be a 1?!!? is not i cant do it...but y??!!!? i duno..and i think if it is a 1...my this 2 yrs will be spend differently...coz by the 1 point...it makes the diference of me gettin into the college or not...i feel so sorry for her n myself....i wud nvr forget the moment..


u followed us through 3 yrs...from sci to pure chem...give us knowledge, value & love....the song u sung for us...is gna be in my heart always...i hope i can be a gd n successful teacher like u, teaching chemistry...some1 who love teaching so much..is really teaching,nothing else..not the monetary gain..but the satisfaction..is ur first job til u leave this place...i really admire & respect u...muz pass down wad u give me...such a devoted n kind teacher...where to find? 1 in a million?is nowhere to be found now..coz she is the only one....we love you........