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today trainin teach them belok..is really a very challengin task to do man..dunno if it is me tat losing my level of tolerance and patience, or izit really them who are slower...they juz dun understand wad im sayin to them..ask them to turn when the command is give and take small steps..but..they juz cannot...until needa take out bench and poles.haha..but afterall..they can manage...left 4 more trainings to go..

went for a haircut after trainin..den went to taka G2000 to get shirt for prom...nth much..juz tat it cost me $59 for a long sleeve shirt...

Have a wonderful and sumptuous buffet dinner at Merchant Court hotel...superb man..the spread is very gd..and the durian mouse..is really very very gd...nothing to say..is not too say..not too bitter..juz nice...and the cheese cake is oso very nice..think i like the appetizer and the dessert the most..plus the shark fin soup..i think, even some hotel 8 course dinner oso lose to this buffet..haha..we were sittin outdoor..coz the indoor is full..but nvm..is very coolin..we are facin the river...den suddenly a strong wind blew across..with tiny droplets...it started to pour..we shift inside...is so cool..after a full n wonderful dinner...it rain...and we are enjoyin our cup of hot tea and coffee..is really great..wads surprise us is tat 4 of us ate..but we oni pay for 3 persons share..y? becoz by usin UOB credit card to bill, for 4 persons dining, the fourth person is free of charge..cool rite? haha..

Tml my ulp grp not havin meetin..tat means..i can wake up later and have longer hrs of slp..this is wad i really need now..yesterday and today have to wake up so early..thurs as well..though is holiday..but im so busy now..even my fren told me durin dinner juz now to have some time to enjoy myself and do something i wanna do be4 goin ns.he initiated to book a chalet for me..he told me he will check if there is still vacancies..den we will go together...but i look at my calendar..like not much time..weekdays evg trainin..sat ulp & vip..den soon is the camp..after will be christmas soon..den new yr..den is my ns....sigh..seems like i have no time to rest and enjoy...feel like havin time doin nth at home..whole day slackin at home watchin tv and slp on my bed..

Today went to evg unit trainin in the morning..so tire when my alarm went off..haha..my cadets do hentak kaki at a fast rate...wad amaze me is tat, all of them do it in tat fast timing...can coordinate well too...when ask them to change to slow one...initially still alright..but after timing is cut off..is back to double quick time...really dunno wad to do with them..now is a bit slower..think tat is the best tat i can do..though is still bit faster den normal 120 per min..haha..even X langkah..also faster than normal..when my chairman fall in with them and do the drills..she cant bang together..i tot is her fault..den when we do together..realise she is correct..haha..so is the rest tat are fast...wadever they do is faster than normal...haha..fast..but can do together.tats amazin..

My ulp grp called me..told me to dance with celina and the whole grp durin campfire.dunno wad mermaid dance or wad...so i told them..if they can be the best grp in terms of every aspects, den i wud say yes..haha..

VIP startin very soon...lookin forward to see this new batch of volunteer..

yesterday contact session nothing much..cadets havin aop.while mentors talk to the grp for abt half the session..my grp shud be quite alright..start to closer to them liao...the strange feelin doesnt exist....durin moi..some of them mention the prob in their unit..nowadays the cadets really gettin more n more problematic...start to aim at the chairman appointment in sec2..some even dun listen to seniors...come to think of it..i think evg is really quite alright..shall feel contented...

Later goin drivin lesson..today go circuit..meanin to say.muz pay extra $22 for the circuit..so broke..maybe after lesson, goin town..to look for shirt..for my prom...luckily jf sir lend me his blazer..if not...i think i wud have to spend more $..thanks man..my saviour..haha...

Woke up at 8 today by myself..without the alarm ringing..my biological clock is workin so well..haha..went to EVG training..22 turned up..4 absent..think is quite gd already, afterall, is a holiday..needa choose 18 out of the 27..today we (me stella & ys) have spotted abt 4 to be taken out...but we will confirm oni on fri..is rather hard to choose..coz at least they have the attitude to come n the determination to get into the squad..is something cruel to do by takin them out..today, they finally master turnin right on the march..it takes abt half an hr for them to do so...haha..quite satisfied...den commander..haha..i dunno if it seems tat we are forcin her..i hope she dun find it so (dunno if she reads my blog..haha..but i doubt so..)..juz feel tat she can do it..so chairman, u can do it! haha...den my reserve commander is more or less confirm oso..Juz dunno y..they still so afraid of me..yes, i have my fierce side..but i oso can be very friendly and approachable...but y cant they juz relax and accept it?hmm..

Went for my drivin lesson after tat..was very dissapointed and it makes me think over n over again..i cant stop thinkin abt it...y the hell i mount curb? haiz..is such a great impact on me...i dun understand leh..den so many road works in such a small neighbourhood..plus there are buses, learnin cars, and students crossin the road...is so busy n crowded..i juz cant accept tat i mount the curb!!

After drivin lesson, meet wei shan, ys, yuhui, at 4 orchard mrt..den went to purchase tickets for exorcism of emily rose..after tat we proceed to queensway...walk around..i saw a few pairs of new jordan shoes...and the nike free...so nice man..nike free is very nice! like presto style kind..but den..now no $..cannot buy anything..plus i goin ns..buy oso no use..juz wear the new balance will do...sian..den oso saw the small, cute and pink nike water bottle..which costs 6 bucks..the 4 of us were thinkin of instructors buyin it, den bring to camp..it wil be a very funny sight..den put it neatly at the front canteen tables..haha!

went back to Lido at 6 plus to meet van, joan and evonne..the show starts at 7..is a gd show..and is a real life story anyway..very interesting..think i wont mind watchin it again..lawyer was used to be one of my ambitions..in the midst of watchin..it really inspire me again..haha..

Later, 1400hrs, will be officially my last A lvl paper..haha...after tat i can burn my entry proof..hahaha..

Today went to my grp meetin at 1030 at Rafflescity BK..everything went smoothly...and i can confirm tat the cadet who cried on the contact session is really becoz she is not feelin well.not becoz of me..coz today she is fine..involve in the discussion actively...so is a sure tat is not ME..haha..so ppl, dun point fingers at me already..ok?haha...we start at abt 11 and end at 2plus if im not wrong..haha..everything was settle...they juz needa word process it...den it will be done..think their management crisis will be very interesting..haha..

After the meetin..went to the new national lib..coz im at city hall..might as well..since i wanna read some books..guess who i saw? i saw ching yee..and she told me she saw shu hui.haha..but nvr see shu hui leh..i wanted to borrow books,when i reach the borrowin machine, it said i have outstandin fee to pay or something like tat..den i check, i owe lib $6.wad the..i noe i have a book overdue very long den i returned..but nvr noe it cost me 6 bucks..haha..den my cash card left 2 bucks..atm no $..in the end, i put the books back to the shelves and went to 7 eleven to top up my cash card..super sian...borrowed 4 books..one on South East Asian politics, two on chemistry, and one abt giving compliment to teachers..haha..too bad is rainin..if not i will explore the courtyard of the lib...den went to shop awhile..and met ys on yio chu kang..we head back to cwp..

Played pool with him..he really improve alot!! THUMBS UP..haha..on the other hand...my skill worsen..haiz..bball oso cannot make it now..den pool oso like tat..so sian man..have to play really serious with him den can win him..gd job man ys..haha...and is my first time tat i needa arrange the balls so many times in a row..arrange as in i lost the game, so needa arrange the ball for the next game..is first time tat i needa arrange it for so many times..ARGH..haha...ys!!!

Sat was the first contact session of ULP...met my group..think all them are quite alright...no prob..juz tat..the one who joined my grp due to shuffle of ppl, cried..oh my..i nvr even said anything tat is negative or wad..sigh..haha..

After the session, we ordered food and stay in campsite til abt 9..celebrated wei shan's birthday..haha..had a great time.

Today is mon..and i catch harry potter with my yj classmates...quite a nice show..haha..after the movie..went home.sian..now nothing to do..frens all schooling..so sian..

Finally exam is over..everything is over..no more exams for the rest of the 2 yrs at least..woohoo! no academics stuffs to worry abt...now i can do wad i long wanted to do..but i cant due to studies and stuff...things like readin (doesnt sounds like me rite?Haha), play bball, billiard, coffee, Kbox, and even shop for things to buy...got alot of things wanna buy..like a non camera phone...due to NS..i thinkin of gettin a samsung S200..which i wanted to own it long ago..now can oni find second hand one..ppl offerin 100..i still thinkin...another one is the new model.X200..stil remember me sayin tat E700A wud be my first n last samsung phone..but now im intendin to buy samsung again..again..its design juz cant resist me from ownin it..but function..of coz i stilll prefer Nokia..den i saw andy sir's new phone..nokia 6030..wad attracts me is the radio and the earpiece..is the old kind of earphone jet.juz checked it out.is can get it without plan at $160...haha.next item on the list is a white nike jordan cap..hard to find leh..nike dri fit sleeveless..better still if get a a nike shorts too.haha..next is i think clothin..though my wardrobe is full.but i feel tat i keep on wearin the same leh..haha..and seems like i lack of something..T-shirts and sports apparel and polo tee...wad else.books..wanna read biography and some other self improve non fiction books..and oso get a car..Kia picanto?haha..rubbish...

so many things to buy..so many areas to spend on..wanna go for entertainment..Kbox any1? billiard anyone? is all abt spendin..but where the hell can i get money in...ARG..headache..get from mum i feel bad..but i no time to even work...JAN 5th NS! Y cant it be April..sigh...money money money...time time time...freedom freedom and freedom..no more freedom from Jan 5th onwards...

Tml first ULP contact session..lookin forward to it..mentor for the 3rd time..first is last yr ulp (wonderful Foxtrot)..followed by EDC...memorable...

Haiz..think i have used up all my luck..luck is not on my side anymore..Chemistry paper 3 was tough...and the qns on Group 7..i remember the things wrongly..mixed them up..den when i am tryin to justify..i think is contradicting...but then i trust my memory..and think my justification is wrong...NO! my logic and justification is right..there goes my 6marks... Today's paper 2, the qns on brine..i nvr study..how the hell i noe cambridge set such an easy qns..juz pure memory and no application..haiz..this time round..i trust my justification...is Chlorine and hydrogen gas..y i trusted my justification tat it is Na...and den reacted with hydrogen ion to give sodium ions and hydrogen gas.haiz..
when i dun believe in u..im wrong...when i do...im still wrong...luck is not on my side...

I juz hope tat Chemistry will not change from my best subject to the worst subject....i juz hope it doesnt...the fact tat i cant get my distinction in my O is already a big impact to me...though is juz a one grade jump...but i juz accept it...now.i dunno how i will take it if it gna be the worst subject among the 3 As subject....

when i dun believe in u..im wrong...when i do...im still wrong...luck is not on my side...

Tml will be my first paper...i wont update til my exams r over...think this shall by my last post for the exam..hahaha...

A maths qns...show that study=fail.

solution:
Why I am not studying???
Because :
No Study = Fail ....................... ( I )
Study = No Fail ............................ ( II )
By Combining ( I ) & ( II ) :=====> ( No Study + Study ) = ( No Fail + Fail )
By Taking ( Study ) as a common factor in the left hand sideAnd Taking ( Fail ) as a common factor in the right hand side
=====> Study ( No + 1) = Fail (No + 1 )
By Dividing both sides by ( No + 1)
=====> Study = Fail

(shown)

Wanted to blog when i reached home..which is 4am this mornin..haha..but blogger was down...so now i shall blog..

Went to lib to study from noon til evenin..shall talk abt studies.if not everytime ppl have the impression tat i nvr study...haha..so fake rite...anyway..goin lib later again..yeah..

went to kah motor (honda showroom) at ubi...Integra is gd...$82k...wad a gd buy..god bro thinkin of changin to tat..haha..den if i pass..i could drive a coupe man...is really cool..and rear seat can take 2 normal size adult..which is very gd for a coupe..though not a turbo charge engine,honda vtec is definitely gd enuff...interior is simple.but when u sit in..the feel is gd..simple and nice...with a sunroof over ur head...great man...but of coz..wud wanna drive a normal sedan first..if not..next time i wont be easily satisfied by a normal sedan...need performance car..and if i cant afford..den it will be very sad..so..stil hope if he change after i pass..haha.so at least i can drive a sedan...haha..

After goin kah motor..went to nissan showroom..look at the newly launch murano...there r two variant..one is 2.5Litres and the other is 3.5 litres..ppl who gna buy this..muz be rich n like SUV.coz..it cost a mercedes C-class...$120k...i wont appreciate man..haha..if i have the money...i wud get myself a mini cooper if talkin abt lifestyle car..a alfa romeo 147 or volkswagon golf turbo if talkin abt performance and looks..talkin abt jap car..i think i will get a integra or euro R..haha...so much to list....all is abt if only.....

If only....him is a me..saw her new profile..think she has changed..changed to become more of my cup of tea..can see tat she is very happy and fulfilling..which is something very gd..juz tat it could nvr be me...but again..as long as wad she is feelin now is happiness..i will be glad...and pray tat it wud be forever...

time flies real fast...Fri is comin in less than an hr time..sigh..my As...i got nth to comment abt my As.think im gonna be the least prepared A lvl student....since time passed real fast, and my exam is comin..i believe my holiday wud come fast too! haha....muz be thinkin,wad kind of student am i rite? i oso really dunno..haha..so no mood for exams now..is really not tat difficult at all..it is all about hardwork....haiya..really dunno how..

Gonna be 4 more days... HOLIDAYS and my LICENSE TO DRIVE!!!! I'm comin!!!!

Yeah man...today wanna go court juz shoot ball, and go for a jog..coz i tot there shudnt be any1 playin bball today...when i reached court..saw xiao hong han ming they all..haha..wad a surprise...den i go a a jog...ran abt 10 rounds..but i dunno wads the distance covered..haha..den waited quite awhile be4 get to play..coz most of them have their own team...when started to play for awhile..hui ming came down..den i think he asked 2 girls and one old bird down oso..they form 1 team...as usual..is him...haha..den the two girls ar..they screamed..and is so digusting..can make one's hair stand kind..so "dei"..my goodness...but they played quite well..have basic foundation..den some guys there oso lose..haha..after the game..chatted with Han ming they all..a nice chap..still the same..play with him..but our team juz kept losin..think is my fault..but he oso understand the fact tat i didnt play bball for such a hell long time...

I have nvr feel so helpless at court be4...though there are times i do..but not til the extent of wad i am experiencing today...the thoughts of driving in..but...i juz noe tat i cannot..coz i juz cannot..the speed is no longer there..some more..inside is slippery...is very tempting..when inside is rather open..and is a 1 on 1..if is the old me..haha..i wud go man..but now...i hesitate..
coz i noe i cannot go in..the feel is there..no confidence..even i drived in..when i let go the ball..i feel tat it is not goin in..haiz..so sian..so incompetent!! i juz feel so injustice for myself..对不起自己。！though i lost interest in bball long ago..the interest as in play in competition...the interest to play as hobby is still there..haha..as a form of leisure n sports..think after my As..i needa play more often.to get back the feel..and the speed..! argh!!