Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Yeah man...today wanna go court juz shoot ball, and go for a jog..coz i tot there shudnt be any1 playin bball today...when i reached court..saw xiao hong han ming they all..haha..wad a surprise...den i go a a jog...ran abt 10 rounds..but i dunno wads the distance covered..haha..den waited quite awhile be4 get to play..coz most of them have their own team...when started to play for awhile..hui ming came down..den i think he asked 2 girls and one old bird down oso..they form 1 team...as usual..is him...haha..den the two girls ar..they screamed..and is so digusting..can make one's hair stand kind..so "dei"..my goodness...but they played quite well..have basic foundation..den some guys there oso lose..haha..after the game..chatted with Han ming they all..a nice chap..still the same..play with him..but our team juz kept losin..think is my fault..but he oso understand the fact tat i didnt play bball for such a hell long time...I have nvr feel so helpless at court be4...though there are times i do..but not til the extent of wad i am experiencing today...the thoughts of driving in..but...i juz noe tat i cannot..coz i juz cannot..the speed is no longer there..some more..inside is slippery...is very tempting..when inside is rather open..and is a 1 on 1..if is the old me..haha..i wud go man..but now...i hesitate..
coz i noe i cannot go in..the feel is there..no confidence..even i drived in..when i let go the ball..i feel tat it is not goin in..haiz..so sian..so incompetent!! i juz feel so injustice for myself..对不起自己。！though i lost interest in bball long ago..the interest as in play in competition...the interest to play as hobby is still there..haha..as a form of leisure n sports..think after my As..i needa play more often.to get back the feel..and the speed..! argh!!