Sunday, February 12, 2006
finally back to mainland after a week of field camp...is nvr a gd time in field for 7 days..but thinkin back that i had went through it..is quite a memorable experience..gna book in later on..and gna hav my situational test on wed..til fri..ppl sayin tat As results out on fri...however my dad said the newspaper wrote tat is on first wk of march..aiya..no idea which is true..my sgt said if is fri..most probably fri mornin we will book out..last yr As oso release on the fri..they mornin book out..and sat nite book in..i juz hope tat this yr is not..pray tat is on sun..den i wil hav long weekend..my life in bmt is endin real soon...mon throwin live grenade..den ippt test..den SIT test..den i will book out..after tat..the followin wk wil be my life range..and i will be confined for tat weekend..den 1 more book out to go be4 march arrives..when march arrives..will be all footdrill session..rehearsing for our pop...24km route march and we'll be through..no longer a Chao Recruit..but a Private..tat round up my ns story for the moment...I hav no idea whether to go sispec or ocs..i prefer sgt job scope..however, officer is so much more prestigious and honourable...i hav no idea..i guess i will let the fate to decide..and see they will post me to where...i still thinkin..shall i sign on as a WSO in RSAF or shall i not..and take out teaching award instead...
I hav no idea...sincerity=action? versus character and personality, which is more impt? izit tat anyone who can do all the things tat i did not do to u, u will rather be with him?or izit character tat really matters?is not i dun want to do anything..im juz too helpless..and is not tat i cant do wad they did..but izit all those things matters?does tat really shows their sincerity?i doubt so..is all juz actions..for the sake to win u..tat calls sincerity?izit really tat u needa see (actions) rather than u feel (love)?or do u see den result u to feel?or u cant see and feel it from me at all? haiz..i guess i leave it to my destiny..if it comes..it comes..if it doesnt..i guess i shall remain wad i am now..if u think this is the mr right..den..u shall go for it..im not like wad u think now..is not like wad u said to me on the 1st of jan 2006..im not like tat..i only hav a heart j...i can oni said tat..i did wad the rest didnt..tat is..my genuine heart...u make the decision..u make the judgement..u make the choice...i leave it all to u...
future is at the crossroad...........my life...
career,As results,family,and you......
exhausted....