Saturday, November 10, 2007
whole day rested at home...enojoy a gd sat rest...went out dinner with parents n my little brother..he does has his adorable side...im juz so like my mum...so soft hearted..guess is always a mistake to be so...ha..
tryin to convince her tat i go learn riding...den she will talk to my dad..aha...smart rite. and she really did..heard she talkin to my dad abt it on the bus while i sit few seats away...as usual..my dad objectively told my mum dun let me ride etc..newspaper recently more n more incident abt motorbike accidents..haha..
but....maybe..i will rebel this once and only once..haha...but..v lazy, still muz take theory....hmm....
finally understand...everything is point to me...back to me..seriously..is me...am i really too much?when ppl told me wad they saw..they were stunned as well..my reaction really were wrong?dun u think u have wrong too?tat makes me....doubted so much.yes, i am wrong most of the time too..but...haiz....wads the point now?pointless to broad over everything...tats my fate..my fault....this is the punishment for my wrongs now..i, have to accept it den...my fault..im wrong....can nvr expect..this is the ending to the story.....
so many things happen in my day to day life..it will link to......us...saw seoul garden..rmb had dinner w ur family..pass by royal buffet at tampines mall..again...had ice cream..think of..how i am stuff w bread n ice cream..haha...
hate myself..y cant i fucking stop havin those memory flashes..y cant i be stronger n heartless to juz dun think abt it...y wud i still will depressed after all these happen. fuck man....cant i fucking wake up.
shall i go for riding lesson?dad keep tellin me to work n get a car..but..how to...haiz..so sian...i oso wish..if oni i even have 10k...i gna get a EG6 already..
felt like tatoo too..haha..was thinkin at either my shoulder blade or, ankle...but..if i wear shorts..is real visible..
im addited to alcohol liao la..haha..volka peach...
hmmm...really need to do some thinkin..